Our Journey Home

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

His love

Yesterday my precious husband took the day off from work, to spend the time with his girls. God just spoils me so much! It was an absolutely beautiful, sunny, cool day- the perfect day for a trip to the park. (I can't believe I forgot to bring the camera!) We went to Blue Jay Point, which is a camp ground/ picnic/ playground park. The girls enjoyed playing in the sand, climbing the playground structures, and having a snack picnic, but our favorite activity was walking on the trail down to the water's edge. While we were standing on the rocks and small waves were washing over our toes, Wubs asked to take her shoes off. The girls both slipped out of their Crocs and somehow Wubs managed to get wet up to her waist! (Bella was a little more timid. Little toes in the water only!) When it was time to climb back up the sandy bank and walk up the trail, Bella was a little unstable in her slippery, wet Crocs. She asked me to carry her, and David helped Wubs navigate over the tree roots and bumps on the trail. It was a sweet family day filled with memories.

It's been a hard two days. I had hoped to post pictures from our ultrasound, but instead, God is giving me the opportunity to write about His perfect love. This morning, while I was having my quiet time, I was reading in Psalm 94. "When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul."- Psalm 94:18-19. I was reminded about carrying Bella up the trail yesterday, because she was wobbly and scared, and of course, she didn't really know where we were going. Right now, I feel a lot like Bella, and I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father that is holding me and bringing joy to my soul. There is a difference between joy and happiness. I can't write that I don't feel sad right now... in fact, I think I have cried more in the last two days than I've probably cried in the last two years. However, I have joy in Christ Jesus that can't be shaken. He is faithful, and I trust His plan for our family.

Thank you for your prayers.
"There is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance (and for this we labor and strive), that we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all men, and especially of those who believe."- 1 Timothy 4:9-10


  1. So glad that you were able to spend that special time together as a family! I love you friend...praying for you!

  2. Here for you...Iam happy that you are finding his joy and peace and love. Call when your ready. I love you, Catherine P.S. missed YOU at church. I was there wednesday nite and helped out.LOL just Missed you!! Take care and as always we are praying for you all.

  3. Wow Sarah. I love you best friend. This blog is so good. God is amazing - we will praise Him because even when we suffer, He is with us, right next to us. And His presence is so evident and clear in yours and David's life. I am praying for you, David and the girls continually.

  4. Love you and thinking about you sweet friend.

  5. Sarah,
    Just read this and am feeling much sadness for the baby now resting in heaven. I will be praying for you much in the coming days!

    Love, Leslie

  6. Hello Sarah-

    I was reading your blog and realized that your family has been going through some things lately. I am not sure exactly what happened, but I am guessing things have not gone well with the pregnancy. I am so sorry. I know the ache that is within from my own experience and I also know the joy of the Lord that you spoke of that sustaines you. I wanted to share something with you that God gave to me....I don't know if it will help, or encourage, but I needed it at the time and I feel lead to share it with you.

    When we went through our first round of IVF we got pregnant and we lost that pregnancy. I was so devestated. I guess I had thought that if God finally allowed me to get pregnant that he would not let it be taken away. He is sovreign and has a plan though and I know that it was something I had to go through to be able to minister to others in there time of loss. Anyway, I ended up on a flight home a few days later to spend it with family (Joe could not come due to work), so as I flew by myself on that four hour flight, I just looked out the window into the darkness of night and wept. As I was weeping Jesus in his awesome love gave me a "vision" or "picture" as you will. I saw Jesus sitting with 9 children surrounding him just smiling filled with joy and love. You see at that point joe and I had lost 7 of the babies that had been made through the process of IVF as well as lost the two babies that they had put inside of me. You see, I know that you are probably dealing with this differently than me...but I was so hurt and Jesus was showing me how very important life was to Him. I was weeping over my two that I had lost and here he was showing me all 9 of my babies. It was just what I needed. I may never have more children on this earth, but in heaven I have a huge family that is waiting to reunite one day!

    I hope that came out right. I know there is not much more to say....but I will be praying that the love of Jesus and his constant comfort and peace will be ministering to you right now and that He will speak to those broken places to help soothe them. He came to heal the broken hearted and bind their wounds. He understands and loves you so much, I just pray that you will feel His loving arms around you even more during this time.


  7. Hey Sarah,

    I know you think we've lost contact, but I check in on this blog every so often to see how you and the fam are doing.

    My heart broke when I read of your latest trial. I am so sorry. :( Continue to find strength in the Lord, my friend.

    Your Devoted Reader,